I won't ever see you again, will I?

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"I won't ever see you again, will I?"
"No. You won't."
"Hmmm.. Can we at least pretend that we will see each other tomorrow?"
"Yeah, we can."
"Okay, so I'll see you tomorrow."
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okay so i was watching this show and they said this. it really made me think. this little boy was saying goodbye forever to his friend, a grown man who helped him in life, yet he wanted to pretend that they would see each other again soon. wow. i know for a fact that i couldnt just be that optimistic/happy-go-lucky about it. i have this thing where i am, like, paranoid as in thinking that at any moment one of my closest friends could die. every time i talk to them, we do, though, just say "later" or something of the sort. so i guess i do that on some level, but i know that there is a greater possibility that i will see them than not. that is a bit easier. but knowing you'll never see that person that means so much to you ever, ever again and just saying "see you tomorrow"? no i couldnt do that. itd kill me inside to know that i wouldnt really see them tomorrow. oh man, i never really thought about stuff like this before. its sort of overwhelming, for me anyway. i know i am so much different than other people on soooo many levels, so this might not have the same effect on others as it does me. but i seriously cried because of this small quote from a movie. one of my friends died one day after an almost regular day of talking with me. i yelled at him right before we got off the phone, and i never got the chance to say sorry or talk to him again. we would, yes, quarrel a lot, but the next day everything would be fine, thats how it always worked untill this time. i guess that's why this thing effected me so. i think you, the viewer, should think about that too. tell me how it effects you. it had a beg effect on me, will it you?
~the em~