Chemical Imbalance My A**

Well, for a long time you could say that I was clinically depressed. I wasn't happy and nothing could make me happy. There wasn't much of a cause for it, it was just there like a black cloud surrounding my head that I couldn't, or wouldn't, get rid of. I actually got to the point where I was contemplating suicide. Well, to be completely honest, I was planning my own suicide. I would have done it too. But something-- someone--stopped me, and I am sooooo incredibly thankful they did. After that, I began my slow, slow journey to climbing out of that hole I was in. Hell, I didn't even realized it then, but I was. It took a long time to get where I am today. I don't think I would have if it weren't for two people in my life... I want to thank them whole-heartedly. Nic, you've always been there for me and, no matter what, always made me feel better in even the worst of situations. You have had the biggest influence on my life in the best ways possible. I know that you don't think so, but you have. You're my best friend, and, I hope, always will be. Rae, you came into my life quickly and just as quickly you loved me in my bad times. That I still don't understand. You kicked my depressed ass, dude. Because of you guys, I'm doing better than I have ever done in my entire life. No, I'm not a happy-go-lucky optimist, but I'm doing good. And as proof of that, it has been an entire six months since I last cut! I never thought I could do it. And, science can kiss my ass too. Chemical imbalance my ass.... So, thank you, I guess, for sticking with my lame ass. It means more than you'll ever know. Six Months Baby!!!!!! I'm psyched...
~The Em~