How can I sit here

and say it's okay

when I've only been thinking

of you all my day,

they way that I hurt you

they things that I said

How can I feel comfy?

How can I go to bed?

I didn't want to do that

didn't mean to make you sad

I just knew I had to tell you

of the thoughts that I had.

I don't know what's going on

inside your intense, complex head.

I know I failed to mention

you make my heart a firey red.

And I'm dying on the inside

not knowing what you think

I keep breathing in and out

but I know I'm on the brink.

Tell me what's on your mind

It may not change a thing

but it matters nonetheless

please share everything

I need you...

~the em~

I Think

My mind: its swirling
like the flavors in a lolli-pop
Its everywhere and Nowhere
spinning round like a top

I don't know what to think
and I don't know what to say
sometimes i tend to wonder
if it matters anyway

Am I changing?
Do I care?
What's it to you?
Get out of my hair.

I don't need the answers
why even look?
they'll come to me eventually
and i'll be like an open book

I'm not much for writing
my thoughts are my own
I is what I is
and That's all that is known.

~the em~

Boo! Haha, I scared you!

Yeah, if it isn't already obvious, I couldn't think of a better title for what I'm blogging right now. I was thinking about it, and it occured to me that no one blogs anymore! No one! Just me. I'm the only one who has a continuous blog from when we all started and who still has it. Pft. And no one who used to read it still does. I think people have committment problems. Don't worry, I'm committed to this blog I guess. I kind of like it. It basically is a timeline of my past two years, or at least some of it. So yeah. That is my rant on how no one blogs!!!! BLOG MORE! Grrr. I'm running out of things to read people! haha

Okay, so I have absolutely nothing to say that goes along with my topic/title. But I ran today. I could have done better. I should have done better. But its okay, because I did better than I thought, so that's good. And I finished!! I was pretty proud of me. Well, I am now. When I finished, I was about to pass out (literally, my vision was fading to black and I could barely stand up I was so dizzy) and I cursed myself for getting me into that stupid running thing. Ugh. I had to lean on Jamie the whole for a long time. I like her for leaning on. She's a pretty great friend. And I get to write an essay about her... mwahahaha. I'll definitely make that interesting. But, yes. So running. Yeah. My glutes hurt. You'd think that since it was running and you use your legs that it would be my legs that hurt. But no. Its my butt. That is sooo beyond me....

Hmm.... well. I'm bored. And this isn't entertaining me because my life is pretty dull right now, I'm not going to lie. So.... MORE PEOPLE NEED TO BLOG! That's all I have to say.
the end

~the em~