The Sky Is Falling

The sky is falling
And I'm not calling
I need it to take me away
_
The blue is coming
and my fingers are drumming
For what? I cannot say
_
The rain is pounding
and in it I'm drowning
yet I cannont complain
_
The wind is blowing
my eyes, over-flowing
This I cannot contain.
_
The sun is shining
yet I am pining
for songs of another day
_
The Rainbows are forming
my heart is warming
and I must bid ave.

~The Em~

The End

When I'm near you

don't even breath

don't even think

And only with you

am I ever on the brink.

You made me empty

wouldn't smile

wouldn't frown

and all you ever do

is kick me when I'm down.

I said good-bye

Without any cries

without any tears

And those who really cared

let out silent cheers.

You're So far gone

Don't know what to say

what to do.

I did this for me

you make my heart blue.

Who are you now?

don't really care

don't really know

You're so far away

and I made it so.

And without us together

no more grief

no more pain

yet I can't help but feel

I wish to speak to you again...

~The Em~

*Zerburt*

I really have no idea what to do right now. But you know what I want to do? I want to...
Dance around like no one is watching.
Sing a song and make up my own words.
Spin in circles untill I vomit.
Make up my own song, music and lyrics.
Go outside and play in the rain.
Sleep for a thousand hours, but wake up tomorrow morning to go to jazz band.
Do some desperately needed laundry.
Write a lovely poem and work on my novel.
Read my favorite book.
Magically find a way to get what I'm craving.
Pretend like I'm sexy and take model pictures.
Call someone special and tell them how I feel with no repercussions.
Crawl into Jamie's hot tub and relax.
Make the best cup of coffee the world has ever known.
Draw a picture and post it on my art site.
Remember to not forget anymore.

But I have time for none of this. I do my work, I go to school, I go be social with my friends, and I have no time left. That's stretching it past its flexibility. Yikes.... I know I'm stressed, but I can't say it bothers me, because it doesnt. I'm totally zen. I might dedicate tomorrow to doing whatever I want... That is, if I'm not busy >_<.

~The Em~

How can I sit here

and say it's okay

when I've only been thinking

of you all my day,

they way that I hurt you

they things that I said

How can I feel comfy?

How can I go to bed?

I didn't want to do that

didn't mean to make you sad

I just knew I had to tell you

of the thoughts that I had.

I don't know what's going on

inside your intense, complex head.

I know I failed to mention

you make my heart a firey red.

And I'm dying on the inside

not knowing what you think

I keep breathing in and out

but I know I'm on the brink.

Tell me what's on your mind

It may not change a thing

but it matters nonetheless

please share everything

I need you...

~the em~

I Think

My mind: its swirling
like the flavors in a lolli-pop
Its everywhere and Nowhere
spinning round like a top

I don't know what to think
and I don't know what to say
sometimes i tend to wonder
if it matters anyway

Am I changing?
Do I care?
What's it to you?
Get out of my hair.

I don't need the answers
why even look?
they'll come to me eventually
and i'll be like an open book

I'm not much for writing
my thoughts are my own
I is what I is
and That's all that is known.

~the em~

Boo! Haha, I scared you!

Yeah, if it isn't already obvious, I couldn't think of a better title for what I'm blogging right now. I was thinking about it, and it occured to me that no one blogs anymore! No one! Just me. I'm the only one who has a continuous blog from when we all started and who still has it. Pft. And no one who used to read it still does. I think people have committment problems. Don't worry, I'm committed to this blog I guess. I kind of like it. It basically is a timeline of my past two years, or at least some of it. So yeah. That is my rant on how no one blogs!!!! BLOG MORE! Grrr. I'm running out of things to read people! haha

Okay, so I have absolutely nothing to say that goes along with my topic/title. But I ran today. I could have done better. I should have done better. But its okay, because I did better than I thought, so that's good. And I finished!! I was pretty proud of me. Well, I am now. When I finished, I was about to pass out (literally, my vision was fading to black and I could barely stand up I was so dizzy) and I cursed myself for getting me into that stupid running thing. Ugh. I had to lean on Jamie the whole for a long time. I like her for leaning on. She's a pretty great friend. And I get to write an essay about her... mwahahaha. I'll definitely make that interesting. But, yes. So running. Yeah. My glutes hurt. You'd think that since it was running and you use your legs that it would be my legs that hurt. But no. Its my butt. That is sooo beyond me....

Hmm.... well. I'm bored. And this isn't entertaining me because my life is pretty dull right now, I'm not going to lie. So.... MORE PEOPLE NEED TO BLOG! That's all I have to say.
the end

~the em~

When You Wish Upon A Star

Well, the title makes me feel like Jiminey Cricket, lol, but that's okay.

I saw a shooting star tonight. I like shooting stars, I think they are absolutely beautiful. I was walking home with my cousin, Abby. She told me to make a wish. Hmm..... dare I say "How cliche"? I might have, I'll admitt it. But I did make a wish. I won't share. But I made a wish. Besides, wishes rarely come true, so it's not a big deal. Even still, I wonder what this magic will bring me.

One time when I was little, I wished upon an airplane. I think it was the best wish ever. Even if it was on an airplane, my wish was pretty great. I don't know whether it was a great wish in itself, or the feeling making the wish gave me that was great. But whatever it was, my wish came true. Maybe people would have more luck if they wish on airplanes instead... who knows?

I watched a meteor shower not too long ago. Technically, it wasn't a meteor shower; it was the Earth passing through a giant ring of dust that circles the sun and the particles of dust were the shiny flying things in the sky =P. But it was amazing. Did I wish? Yes, I wished a lot. But my wished didn't come true in the way I had hoped. They came true in mysterious ways. I saw about 15 shooting stars that night, but I really only made a few wishes.

Thing is, a part of me doesnt even believe in making wishes. I think you have to go after what you want and not let pure happen-stance solve everything. I can be a go-get-er. So maybe making the wish was the first step in going after what I really want/need. Maybe I made the wish because I didn't think I'd ever be able to get that, and it was my only chance because I had been trying. Maybe I made the wish to give myself a ray of hope that could lead me to getting what I want/need. Who knows?

All I know is that on my wall, the large part of me that relies on fate wrote "Make a wish... and Believe in it." I heard that on a philosophical tv show that's not really philosophical at all. I find meaning in everthing =). But, if you don't believe in things, in yourself and in your wishes and desires, then its hopeless. And even though I believe whole-heartedly in this philosophy, I'm pretty hopeless. =)

"When you wish upon a star, makes no difference who you are
Anything your heart desires will come to you
If your heart is in your dreams, no request is too extreme
When you wish upon a star as dreamers do
(Fate is kind, she brings to those who love
The sweet fulfillment of their secret longing)
Like a bolt out of the blue, fate steps in and sees you thru
When you wish upon a star, your dreams come true"

~the em~